Being 30 and How I Finally Embraced It

I just turned 30 earlier this month. And truth be told, I fucking dreaded it! I was so pressured with the fact that I had nothing to show for despite living three decades in this world already! I try not to compare myself with my peers as it would be quite unfair, mostly to me. Hahaha

But I guess it was inevitable especially since social media has taken over and I wasn't even very active in the cybersphere, until now that is. 😂

While Life Is, Hope Is: Birthday Reflection

It's been four days since my birthday. Like the usual, I had a lot to think about and worry about too. I didn't look forward to it. Although, I kinda counted down the days but its for an altogether different reason, I was dreading it. I have come to a point in my life where I look at birthdays (at least my birthday) as a dreary affair and not-so much as a fanfare.

It's Always a Good Time: Birthdays with Friends

You cannot choose your family but you can definitely pick your friends. Well, it didn't go that way for me at all. I was among the transferred students in the new public school in the district. We were already on our senior year and honestly there was not really any particular reason for us to transfer, well, it maybe due to how close our houses were to the school and there were teachers to spare, sort of.

Nostalgia At It's Finest

I’m going to be in my late 20's in a couple of days, and whenever my birthday looms, I’m wistful. I think back on all my life experiences, the friends I’ve made and eventually lost, the choices I’ve made and all that. Plus, I entertain the never-ending what-ifs and picture how I would have turned out if I chose differently. Am I regretting how I’ve lived my life? Maybe.

For as long as I remember, this has been my “normal”. I see nothing wrong with doing this from time to time and I do stop whenever I start to feel down. I don’t think remembering things past should be sad or painful, not at all! I’d like to think that reminiscing should leave a smile on my face or simply refresh my mind of the life lessons I’ve gained. Those things, regardless of how sad or happy, happened for a reason and shaped whoever I am now. How I turned out may not come at par to other people’s expectation, but really what gives? It’s my life and I should be calling the shots.