I’m going to be in my late 20's in a couple of days, and whenever my birthday looms, I’m wistful. I think back on all my life experiences, the friends I’ve made and eventually lost, the choices I’ve made and all that. Plus, I entertain the never-ending what-ifs and picture how I would have turned out if I chose differently. Am I regretting how I’ve lived my life? Maybe.
For as long as I remember, this has been my “normal”. I see nothing wrong with doing this from time to time and I do stop whenever I start to feel down. I don’t think remembering things past should be sad or painful, not at all! I’d like to think that reminiscing should leave a smile on my face or simply refresh my mind of the life lessons I’ve gained. Those things, regardless of how sad or happy, happened for a reason and shaped whoever I am now. How I turned out may not come at par to other people’s expectation, but really what gives? It’s my life and I should be calling the shots.
